Re-Balance & Re-Tune

“What do you do when things go from bad to worse?”

I was asked that question a couple months ago after the “tornado” hit our property by a man whose work I follow, Jason Lindgren.  I consider the work he does with Crrow777 to be very inspiring.

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So, pray tell, wise man, what do I do with a dozen fallen trees?

It’s not at all inspiring in the vein of Ram Dass quotes and vision boards and self-help mantras.  You might even argue it’s the opposite, more often than not.  Not that it’s nihilistic ‘slash and burn’ either, but more like, ‘tastefully deconstruct and reconsider.’

These guys have heard it all, I’m sure.  Nut jobs, shills, conspiracy theorists would be on the mild side.

I see something quite different, typical.  They’ve recently filmed a documentary called “Shoot the Moon” — about the lunar wave — quite à propos, no?

I see determination, resilience, fortitude, creativity—all qualities I consider to be deliciously rare.  Others see ‘crazy’ where I see ‘courageous.’

Most of all, I see care.  Authentic care.

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“What a good question,” I replied at the time. 

I really had not a clue at that moment and was still in a state of mental and emotional chaos, which had my conscious thoughts and unconscious feelings ALL over the place.

Of course, when I’m all over the place I drag Hubby all over the place with me, which surely isn’t the reason why he’s been working so much overtime, right?? 🙂

“Let’s sell it all and move to Mexico!” was at the top of my list at the time of that astute question.  Folks don’t ask a lot of good questions, even the well-meaning ones.  Mostly I hear useless platitudes, like these Ram Dass quotes, and even actual arguments about how they think I should be feeling.  

To be absolutely frank in a ‘too much information’ sort of way I’m sure to regret at some point, I think what happened to my psyche right after the latest weather disaster was what the shrinks would call ‘complex PTSD’.

Yes, I’m self-diagnosing from the Internet.  But, the symptoms fit, and the worst of it came out in flooding of somatic memories that were totally overpowering and illogical and unwelcome, along with intense anxiety, nightmares and terrors, paranoia, depression, loss of sense of stability and control, and so on.

These weren’t overpowering memories just from the previous two disasters, Hurricanes Katrina and Ike, they went much further back.  They wen’t so far back sometimes that I couldn’t really tell if they were ‘all mine’ alone, but that doesn’t matter one bit, because they were terrifying and I was feeling them as if they were currently happening to me, alone.

I mostly isolate in such times, because I feel if nothing else, I don’t want to take others down with me.  But also because I know from experience how badly the average person handles disaster, or grief, or anything remotely unpleasant or unsavory, so I feel I have little other choice.

I want to say now what I think really helped, now that I feel on the upswing once again.  It’s not because I think what helps me will help others necessarily, but you never know how adding to the reservoir of our individual coping and healing techniques could work for someone, somewhere, and I’ve got a great big hunch more folks are going to need more such resources for the coming decades.

What’s working for me, what have been my buoys in the darkness?

Not those typically espoused by those who think they know, like ‘get out and socialize’ or ‘join a club’ or ‘try these meds’ or even meditate or try a new hobby.

Jason’s simple question—spontaneous, honest, rhetorical—gave me a point of focus I expect he never intended, but was able to offer to a virtual stranger, out of . . . I don’t really know . . . empathy, curiosity, tact?

A few other things helped too.  I consulted an astrologer for the first time in my life.  https://readingsbyyerevan.com/

I decided (again) my first responsibility is to my own well-being, which should be obvious, but I often forget it.

This blog helped, the folks who support me in this blog helped.  I got to send my chaotic feelings into the ether, to be read or ignored as the reader saw fit, no obligation, but no expectations from me either.  That’s truly cathartic for me.

I’m taking herbal hormones and eating an even healthier diet than I typically do, just loading up more on the veggies and herbs and lightening up on the chips and fries.  That part has been pretty painless.

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Isolating for me dramatically reduces stress, yet this is what all the experts say to never do.  I think that’s because they want the vulnerable to join cults and be in an even greater position of weakness to group-think and consensus trance and taking bad popular advice, like anti-depressants, for starters.

I’m not saying I’ve figured it all out or it’s all downhill from here, but I’ve added a few more tools to the box.

So, to answer your question, Jason, “What do you do when things go from bad to worse?”

I re-balance and re-tune, and if that goes well, I re-commit.  

I might still be down, but I’m not yet out.  And there’s no power, be it technocratic, dogmatic, omnipotent or otherwise, who’s going to force me from our land in this lifetime.  If it comes to push and shove, I go down with the ship. Period.

Stubborn?  Perhaps.
Inspired?  Definitely!

 

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Stop the Madness!

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The geoengineering/weather modification is destroying lives, property and our environment.  This is now clear to millions of folks around the world who are getting educated, standing up, and speaking out.

But millions will not be enough to change this course, we have the biggest multinational corporations, governments and militaries around the globe against us, and against the entire web of life.

Like this landowner, who goes by Swamp Boss, we have also been losing trees at an astonishing rate these last several years.  This is absolutely not normal by any stretch of the imagination and any landowner paying attention knows this.  Our forests are being poisoned.

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I try to talk about this with folks—friends, neighbors, family—I even hand out flyers, and I get blank stares and eye rolls for my efforts, and rarely do I get a single question or look of concern.  It’s baffling and upsetting and I’m really peeved at the lack of care of those around me.  That’s why I spend so much time alone gathering evidence from folks I’ve never met, simply because it’s too painful to not find like-minded individuals, so I seek them out, even if only in cyberspace.

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There is plenty of information out there and if more folks don’t take an interest in the actual world around them, the natural world, we don’t stand a chance.

I really wish I knew what the magic formula would be to get folks to look up from their games and fiddlesticks for long enough to realize all our lives and livelihoods are in danger, and we are at war.

Folks need to stop saying, “Calm down!” And start rising up.

What will make folks care?  Who do you think your grandchildren are going to blame when they inherit a dead planet, while you eye-rolled yourself back into a zombified stupor bowed before your handheld radiation fondle slab?

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Or said, “No problem, calm down, God will solve it.”
Or said, “Technology landed us on the moon and will solve this too, so stop bothering me with your negativity.”

”But look . . ,” you will try to explain at your grandchildren’s accusations of carelessness and irresponsibility . . . “You don’t have food, but you have Facebook! We did that! You’re welcome!”

What kind of trade off have you made on their behalves, and who gave you such a right?

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Spring Chaos to Summer Swelter

The geoengineered ‘tornado’ this spring has been a big setback for us, but we’re adjusting with a blossoming ‘f**k it’ attitude that will surely see us through the misery of the current hazy-swamp setting per the weather controllers.

BE7E2441-5C49-4460-A650-79BE67B77BC1The ‘feels like’ temperature promises to remain in the 100s for a few months, no doubt.  Most folks around here say that’s normal, but that’s because most folks alive today have been living with modified weather for decades without realizing it.  Weathermodificationhistory.com

Since the politicians and select scientists have partnered up to bully the public into buying their global climate change scheme, the few who even notice the atmosphere is different think the technocrats will swoop in and fix it all up again.

 

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Seriously?

The ‘f**k it’ attitude is necessary to maintain sanity currently, but knowing it must be temporary makes it especially bitter-sweet.  Downed trees remain a keen reminder still in looking out through any window of the house. 

But, I’ve adjusted to them now, labeling them in my mind as satanic yard art.

My shoulder injury persists, Hubby’s working loads of overtime, and there’s plenty to do just in maintaining what we can without tackling a difficult clean-up project just now.  Or just about anything else.

As a bonus, the birds love it, we have cardinals nesting, super happy woodpeckers, bouncing bunnies, and the sheep are cooperative enough to take on the garden mess for me.

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85F6D33B-6E44-4ACF-A288-2A82BFCAE4D2Since I can’t make cheese or garden or can, I’ve been trying to foster some new hobbies.  Learning to paint and sew helps to pass the time, but mostly they are too sedentary for my nature.  I’m trying to adjust. 

But, it feels like trying, as does reading, which doesn’t fit so well with the ‘f**k it’ mindset.  For now we join the masses in their preferred great American pastime of apathy, avoidance and distraction by binge-watching movies with a good buzz on.

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Now what bee in her right mind wouldn’t find that to be a pretty home?!

 

The bees are growing fine without my participation, yay!  And, I think I heard Mr. Dragonfly volunteer to help me train the young grape vines.

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But, there should be butterflies all over these zinnias, and that’s cause for concern.

Which then reminds me, it must be cocktail hour.  Like Grandma used to say, “It’s 5:00 somewhere!”

 

Phoney Baloney

Is there a point when Americans will say, “Enough is enough!”?

We’ve long led the world in all things fake, but surely, there is a limit, right?

Fake cheese was already an affront to me as a teenager, as soon as I came back from my first trip to France.  I surely sounded snobby in my refusals to any longer group Velveeta and American cheese slices in the same category as real cheese.  I’d already drawn my line in the sand back then, but fake foods of all kinds are now more than ever the mainstay of American cuisine.

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Me, a cheese-maker? Didn’t see that comin’!

Fake boobs are still on the increase; fake facial features now the norm;  now we even have fake genders.

And as if that weren’t enough to be the last straw, folks have accepted fake weather.

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These days are dire indeed.  While I’m not particularly hopeful things will improve any time soon, I’m not particularly pessimistic either.  As odd as this will probably sound to most, it’s by paying attention to the doom-and-gloomers that I find strength.

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These are the folks who see through the spin. These are the folks who care enough to take a stand, who educate themselves and then courageously and relentlessly find any other way they possibly can to educate others.  

These are my virtual mentors.

It’s the hordes of rose-colored glasses folks that make me want to scream and rant and throw verbal daggers.  It’s these ninnies whose ignorance and apathy inspire such ‘hate speech’ to which they whine and want to make laws to protect themselves further from anyone pricking the bubble of their own delusions!

Sometimes I have to dive very deep into my wellspring of empathy to remember that many folks are dealing with major drama and disease in their lives and for us all we have every aspect of our culture stacked against what is our actual reality.  Many, a great many, Americans live more in a virtual reality than in a real one.  We are now several generations raised primarily by screens, starting with the TV.

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The world of nature is no longer the norm, and this is what most scares me.  I have a very difficult time relating to those who, at still this very late stage, are not able to sense any danger in our position as humans at all and are perfectly willing to lay their very lives, and all of ours along with them, directly into the hands of a complete technological takeover of society.

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I have to be honest, as unsavory as this is, but these folks feel like a liability to me now.

https://www.technocracy.news/opportunity-zones-technocrat-deception-to-plunder-america/

Weeping Mary (video)

As I recently wrote, the Caddo Mounds located in Weeping Mary, near Alto, TX, were leveled, along with loads of damage in Alto and other areas.  I’ve driven there twice, it’s not too far from us, and what I’ve witnessed is still baffling to me.

Caddo Mounds Tornado: Texas Historic Site Struck

http://www.kltv.com/2019/04/17/estimated-cost-rebuild-caddo-mounds-state-historic-site-million/

 

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I saw a cow in labor, dead on the side of the road.

According to this report there was a lot of blood and one death.

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I tried to take these videos, from my phone, and I do really apologize they are not better quality.  I was alone and driving 50 mph and have no experience with video at all.  I thought to learn some editing, try to slow it down or something, but what’s so striking is how long the damage goes on, which is why I had the music on.  I couldn’t even get it all, my phone wouldn’t save/send that much.  But here’s a glimpse, at least.

That’s the Neches river that’s flooded to the road.  The 2nd video includes the mounds, minus the structures.

I do not believe this is a ‘natural disaster’ or a typical tornado, as has been claimed. Perhaps y’all will see what I see a bit better from the videos.

 

 

For those interested in this geographical area, and why it might be a lucrative location for some good ole fashioned disaster capitalism, I can recommend several books for further research.

Mound Sites of the Ancient South: A Guide to the Mississippian Chiefdoms by Eric E. Bowne

Bulletin of Texas Archeological Society Volume 69/1998

Land of Bears and Honey: A Natural History of East Texas by Joe C. Truett and Daniel W. Lay

 

5G: Red Herring?

Something about the whole 5G rollout doesn’t pass the sniff test.  I’m not saying in any way I think it’s a hoax, or not potentially dangerous, or not being shoved on us with tyrannical force, nor do I mean to criticize any of the well-meaning folks bringing this to the public’s attention.

These are folks I ‘like’ and follow and will continue to do.  But, the narrative is being controlled seems to me, in that classic problem-reaction-solution sort of way.  It’s like this: Get the preppers and conspiracy theorists yelling about this for a while, so they’ll cause the alarm we need to sell them all our solutions—from protective clothing, to creams and products, to new paints and covers, so they can keep themselves safe from our potentially lethal ‘upgrades.’

5G Danger: Hundreds Of Respected Scientists Sound The Alarm About Health Effects As 5G Networks Go Up Nationwide

The reason I go as far as to say it’s a potential red herring is because there’s a huge elephant in the room that it’s distracting from which is: weather modification, geoengineering, manufactured weather, synthetic weather, weather warfare, weather terrorism.

So, I’m just going to have to keep pointing out that elephant with each new distraction hoisted on the populace by greedy, nefarious, Agenda 21/2030 planners and their leagues of minions and promoters.  Thank heavens there are still amazing researchers out there making this information available, quite possibly for a very limited time.

Or, are the censorship scares up there with the gun grab scares and the Trump tweets to keep those red herrings flying?

There are many courageous and diligent men and women out there doing seriously impressive work to educate us all, and I am grateful and humbled by their heroic efforts.

 

Advice, well-meaning?

Well, I have already exhausted my resources as far as well-meaning advice from the indoctrinated, ignorant, and ill-informed. Bless their hearts.

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How do we secure our future on the wee homestead where we intend to retire and eventually die when weather terrorism masked as global climate change is wrecking havoc on our livelihood and general disposition and ability to constantly adapt?

Well-meaning advice: More insurance.

So we pay for more insurance so that business in the skies and in the criminal cartels we’ve named governments can continue as usual? But that’s not racketeering?

How do we protect the land and our personal commitment and calling as individuals when the states and communities are taking guidance from compromised institutions attending to steering committees of agendas far, far away from where we call our home? And, by idiots, no less.

Atlantic Council Takes Over ‘100 Resilient Cities’ From Rockefeller Foundation

Thoughtful question from clueless or pretending friend: Do you have an accountant?

WOW!

Elimination of Private Land Ownership: United Nations Agenda 21 here at the local level

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Agenda 21/2030 aims to abolish private property under the guise of ‘sustainable development’ and EVERY Administration in this country for decades has been on board with this U.N. program.  Including the CURRENT ONE!

Typical reply: That’s a conspiracy theory.

Really? Because, they have a f-ing website, moron! Pardon my f-ing French. Just a bit testy these days. Don’t mind me, I’ll just pour me another sherry.

Sustainabledevelopment.un.org

That is, U.S.A., Inc.

“And what is a ‘shell company’ — they seem to be proliferating these days.”

“I don’t know, never heard of them.”

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And still more well-meaning advice:

“You can’t fight the government, sweetie.”

“Oh that good ole Double-Bind, got it, thanks Dad.”

“You’re welcome, sweetie.”

”They soon learn to quit trying to protect themselves, and they quit trying to think for themselves, but submit to the environment around them.”

And they’ll even go as far as to call that Balance. Chainless Slaves