This question was emblazoned on a bright yellow t-shirt with a smiley face, gifted from Hubby’s place of employment several years ago.It’s been the butt of jokes ever since.
Folks can’t even talk to their own loved ones about how they’re really feeling, but the wise guys in Human Resources imagine a worker will feel motivated to show and tell thanks to a cheesy slogan on a free t-shirt.That’s a special brand of marketing brilliance right there.
I suppose there’s more than a few veterans who feel this way, too—they need to communicate how they’re feeling as a form of psychic hygiene—yet when they do there’s a half a dozen ‘highly-trained’ shrinks taking notes and filling the next DSM with their dysfunctional honesty and using their confessions to prescribe a list of solutions based entirely on poppycock.
Happy.Sad.Angry.Bored.Afraid.Please to check appropriate box.That’s become, please to choose appropriate emoji.
But, How are you really feeling?These times are being prescribed as the days that try men’s souls—so I am asking out of sincere caring—how are you really feeling?I suspect you don’t even have sufficient words to describe it, since feelings came long before words, which is why man had to invent art. And then reduce it to emojis.
Did you ever consider that love and fear are both feelings of petrification?They are emotions of freezing in time and space.They serve to protect the species through seduction.In love we long for time to stand still, yet it races.In our memory or recollection it takes hours to sift through minutes.As in fear time seems to stand still, an agonizing splitting into nanoseconds.
Can’t tell the forest for the trees?
Where were you when JFK was shot?Who told you about 9/11?What were you doing when the hurricane hit?Why didn’t you evacuate/shelter in place/donate/volunteer/follow orders/surrender your weapon/buy ammo/plant a garden . . .??
How are you really feeling?Does it fit in the box?
Mama Chop says don’t be shy!
Fear, like love, are the static aspects of feelings that are meant to cause actions—those of survival—run for your life, or care for another’s.
Does fear, or love, inspire you to action?Why, or, why not?
Handsome lads on dogwood petals
Please feel free to reply at length in space below. True empathic response to follow.
A deep bow of gratitude to my essential go-to women who report not what we want to hear, but what we need to hear.
And, a sad song dedicated to them, and us all.
Winter is supposed to be a time of depth, reflection, healing, gratitude, reverence, and patient preparation for spring. Instead, most modern lives have turned it into everything but that.
The Season of Giving was never meant to mean The Season of Buying.
“Order already existed,” I claimed in my last post. Let’s talk about that.
Before science and religion came along there were highly organized human civilizations, not to mention the non-human ones, that somehow managed to thrive without these disciplines. Ancient wisdom fascinates me, how modern science and religion exploits it at our ‘collective’ expense fascinates me even more.
Part 1 G.O.D. = Great Organizing Dynamic
An introduction of terminology: Metaheuristics, Embodied Spacial Cognition, Toroidal Field, Tesselar Spherical Harmonics, Stellarator Optimization, Radiofrequency Plasma, Tokamak Discharge/Sawtooth Oscillation, Quorum Sensing, Vector Memory, Path Integration (PI), Stigmergy
Part 2 = As Applies to Sociopolitical One World Acceleration Process
Underlying Assumption: Crisis Drives Evolution (potential origination of worldview: Cult of Mithras, exploration continues.)
“Living nature is a global community of communication, humans could view themselves as members among many other (non-human) members in this community. Universal-communicative, normative rules can also be derived from such a membership. Their non-observance has led us into a historically unprecedented ecological crisis. In light of this ecological crisis, future adherence to these rules will probably become the greatest cultural and evolutionary challenge that mankind has ever faced. Should we be unable to master the ecological crisis in time by adequately complying with these rules, then our survival is as uncertain as that of most other biological species threatened by mankind ́s activities.
Viewed from this perspective, this book provides support for an ecologically oriented ethics. It does not represent ethics in itself; rather, by opening the way to a new perception of living nature, it wishes to provide the information we need to introduce and establish norms of ecological ethics.”
“The evidence that the sign-mediated interactions of honeybees from warmer latitudes differ fundamentally from those of the northern hemisphere leads to a discussion about how certain capabilities and skills on the molecular level are genetically fixed, in the nuclei of the cells of organisms, culminating in the paradigmatic realm of intra-organismic communication.”
“This series of studies investigated the effects of applied, low-intensity electromagnetic fields on the behaviour of several species. To cover a range of species; the eusocial harvester ants (Pogonomyrmex sp.), solitary orb-weaving spiders, and aquatic planarian (Dugesia tigrina) were examined for behavioural consequences associated with applied electromagnetic fields. An additional component examined these effects on various volumes of water. In all species examined, significant behavioural consequences were observed. Intensities of the used fields ranged from nanotesla to millitesla, and their patterns included a fixed-pattern 60 Hz field, and a more complex-patterned field. A separate component also analyzed the effects of light and polarity, where additional effects were evident. For the experiments with the harvester ants, significant changes in tunneling behavior were observed; for the spiders, significant changes in the structure of the web were observed; for the planarian, significant effects on t-maze arm selection occurred; and for water, significant changes in pH were detected.”
Electromagnetic fields as communication medium of intercellular communication. Mechanisms of indirect coordination based on bee behavior.
This is my newest line of inquiry on this blog, interspersed with the homestead life and happy snaps and the occasional sub-par efforts at fiction, poetry, philosophy, etc.
My intention is to not make it too boring for y’all as I try to ascertain where the real science is, not the crap making it down the public marketing pipeline.
I do hope y’all will join me, and contribute knowledge and wisdom where possible, in this latest topic venture.
Thank you, I do love your company!
Joining me will be Schelling and his problems of nature as subject. 🙂
Grandpa had a strategy when we were growing up that I think is quite common.When we would hurt ourselves and were crying he’d redirect our attention to something else.For example, if we tripped and fell he’d say, “Is the chair ok?”Or the floor, or the toy, or whatever other object was a party to the accident.
In the short-term this is a really good strategy in that it pretty much always works, short of serious injury.
But, with a bird’s eye view, I can now witness how in my (FOO) family of origin, just as in the culture at large, we’ve traded short-term successes at the cost of long-term thriving.
Now that I’m a woman, as the French say—‘of a certain age’— I understand the hidden costs of this short-term fix.It’s taken many years and many, many hours of research and unraveling to mend this deleterious aspect of my upbringing. Me, like all of life, is a work-in-progress.
I know some will just shake their heads thinking I’m blaming others for all my problems in life.It’s really not about that at all.Blame is irrelevant to me. I seek wisdom. And healing. For myself, for others and for the world.
I’ll even take that one step further.I think if Grandpa were listening to me take him to task over this from somewhere in the great beyond, he’d be proud of me for standing up to him in his past life. Because he knows it’s for the greater good. I truly believe the dead don’t give a flying hoot about their misdeeds once in the afterlife. They are beyond body and therefore beyond ego.I can’t even imagine the possibility that he’s out there somewhere still trying to be right and almighty. I can actually hear him laughing at that idea, and he had a great laugh.
So, here’s to you, Gramps. These have been the long-term effects for me, which I’ve been consistently healing and re-training:Not paying attention to my own pain before it gets severe.Discounting my internal experiences and knowing too often.Minimizing and bypassing physical sensations, especially danger.Burying my intuition.Misdirecting anger.Having more compassion for others, and sometimes even animals and objects, than I do my own well-being.Not asking for help or support enough.Isolating excessively during times of deep pain.
That’s my personal list of the largely unspoken long-term effects (trauma) of gaslighting in childhood.I’m certainly not alone in feeling the repercussions of this brand of parenting.Even with mild levels of those raised in family circumstances where there was consistent gaslighting the offspring often end up repeating these toxic patterns in their own relationships and parenting styles.It’s emotional and intellectual manipulation and it’s so pervasive in our culture that it’s rarely addressed.
Until lately.
I see this changing so much now, not just in myself, but really lighting a fire in the entire culture, with vast amounts of material available online and in print to help folks recognize these techniques, heal from them, and eventually, to become such a rockstar at navigating your own reality that you’ll never get fooled again.
To me this is the most positive sign in these troubled times.To me it means nothing less than an enlightenment of those who are strong enough, and diligent enough, to see through the gaslighters’ fog and to realize we’ve been serving dysfunctional and narcissistic individuals, institutions, and indeed an entire toxic system, of power abuse. And this must stop, in our own lives, and in the world at large.
Here are a few books I’ve found helpful.
The Human Magnet Syndrome by Ross Rosenberg
Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker
Self-Therapy by Jay Earley
The best YT channels on the topic along with Ross Rosenberg, in my opinion, so far, because the numbers are growing rapidly:
If psychology and self-help books and videos aren’t right for you, I’ve got another suggestion that will probably sound crazy to a lot of folks.It did to me, before I tried it, several years ago now, on the advice of a therapist: Learn the Tarot cards.
They’ve become like buoys in the ocean to me.
Of everything I’ve tried so far, this has been the single-most helpful for me personally.They have the power to put you in far deeper touch with the archetypes of your own psyche and the consciousness of the world.Not only are they engrossing and insightful, they’re pretty fun, too. At least I think so!
Of course, as with everything, you need a really great teacher.
But . . . How did the magic bullet get ricocheted from the high rise to the grassy knoll, through the driver then the head and then Jackie stayed in sticky, bloody cloths all day? Have you ever tried that, even for like, half a day?
But . . . How did their passports just appear on the pavement of serious destruction, like serious fire and brimstone shyte, while the rest of the rubble was being shipped to China?
But . . . What’s up with building 7?
But . . . Who is John Galt?
I LIKE big BUTs, yo! You, no?!
2. You need us, Gilligan’s Island
So obvious already, right? If I need you and you need me and we need us and all this fuss, well, clearly we are a happy needy collective stuck together on a tiny island singing crappy songs that were shoved down our throats since childhood.
3. B-52s, everything they ever did. Own private Idaho, is your mind, what, I’m not your little girl? Limburger? WTF is she screaming that we called music and lyrics? That played in our malls and on our radios and now reinstalls itself in triplicate on my current rainbow filters, you assclowns! Induce psychosis, call this alternative music.
4. Back in Black Aka, Nihilism 3.0. Take the black pill, everything old is new again, we can dissect JFK until the cows come home in 2525.If man is still alive.
Nothing new under the sun, son.
Rock the crowhouse, casbah.
5. Trump
I met a girl, of about 7
Her grandfather loved to sit on her, and laugh
Her uncle loved to throw seaweed on her head, and laugh
A new series for me, quite inspired actually, and not at all unrelated to our themes here on the wee homestead, even though that may not appear as immediately obvious.
We’re going to approach it in a completely non-confrontational, voluntary, super simple journey. KISS—keep it simple, stupid!
How does nature form the divine feminine?
Jolene by Dolly Parton
Are her fears valid? Does she spend her precious life energy protecting herself and her family from the perceived “Jolene”?
How does she do this—a boob job at 60? Bleached hair? Botox to make her eyes look brighter? How much time does she offer to her gods?
Maybe surrounding herself with only admirers, to boost her perceived public value?Maybe shaming attractive women who dare to compete? Maybe rebuffing conversations that make her uncomfortable?Maybe by using her charm to get out of yet another traffic ticket?
How does Hollywood exploit your/her vulnerabilities?
How do you give this level of low-brow passion-play manipulation a free pass to your psyche every damn day?Through your music, your soap operas, your cruise vacations, your TV programming, your social media?
And don’t pretend it started with flocking Instagram, bitches!Your mothers were raised on Harlequin and Shirley Temple. Get a bloody grip.
Our old paradigms of consciousness are shifting. More and more we have the courageous scientists stepping out of their consensus trance, and one of the biggest is certainly Nassim Haramein. I heard him first many years ago, and while he’s still way over my head, this interview helps to break down his theory to the lay audience.
While I can’t say how or why or if crystals work, or planets are hollow, or if the Fractal Systems Theory is the new Big Bang, I can agree on one fundamental aspect of the nature of the universe and of consciousness, and that is what the spiritualists once called ‘ether’ exists. We are ‘informing’ the universe and it us in return at every nano-second. I know this by studying nature, as did many of Haramein’s predecessors, like Viktor Shauburger and Nikola Tesla and Albert Einstein. You don’t have to be an actual renowned physicist, or a 19th century clairvoyant, you only have to start to recognize and appreciate the patterns of nature all around us. There is an organizing principle, a higher law, and to bring this all back down to earth, this is why censorship is a crime.
We absolutely need more powerful individuals like this Google insider gone whistleblower to clean out these violations of natural law.
The voice and will of the people is what creates our reality, at every layer.
Kensho Homestead 