Part 16: My dark little secret

Some iconic lines in films imprint on the psyche collectively and I know you could think of one right now that instantly crosses several generations and continental divides.

You can’t handle the truth!” Name that film, name that actor. Could you even name his co-star in that blockbuster?

Somehow, somewhere, as a collective, we’ve given ourselves over to worship and celebrity and fantasy and distraction in the most destructive ways. I am not resolved from that influence and never will be.  I watched TV constantly for years in high school, only to give it up for years later in exchange for an exhaustive social life, only to give that up more years later for work I found most of all, exhausting.

I had/have this secret fantasy I’m going to share right now (again). After hurricane Katrina, right after, when I heard on the news the city was more or less safe, and me many hours away in a quaint bed and breakfast drinking wine with lunch, the hurricane widely reported as much less dangerous than anticipated, but that residents would need to stay away for a few days at least for safety precautions, I was glad.  Nearly giddy, and not from the wine.

I had just started a new position at Tulane university and already I didn’t really want to go back. It took a day or so more before all hell broke out and select areas of the city flooded terribly and all residents had to stay out indefinitely. In our case, we were allowed to go back after two months. For some, it was never. We lived in a trendy and relatively upscale area right on Audubon Park. It was a beautiful spot, both before and after the hurricane. Some were far from so lucky and they’d been there many generations, not just two weeks, like us.

I do hold shame for this secret fantasy, because I still feel it. When I dwell, necessarily, in the dark places of my life and the world, I know there is much sickness, far too much. Far too much destruction, voluntary and deliberate and needless.  Still, I have dwelt in destruction.

And there is too much wind, dammit, all around me lately seeming to get worse every year. It’s bloody annoying!  We had no winter and now no spring.  The plants and animals struggle with it far less than I, but still, I know, they do.

Wind is really stressful!  This makes me smile, because there was a time I lived in Chicago and worked downtown and yes, the wind was legendary, but it was mostly something I peered at from the window and got annoyed at how it affected my hairdo.

But the wind is far more powerful and penetrating than I had, and I think most, ever realize. Is that not what blew down the house of each of the three little pigs?

They are blowing, those wolves, our weather right now is as manipulated as the currency market. And in my secret fantasy I sometimes can’t help but wonder—would we all be better off in the long run if they would just blow it all down?  Roses blooming at the same time as the dogwood?! It just ain’t right.

This week’s breadcrumb, I’ve got so many I’d love to share this week, but this one is so essential it needs to stand alone.

Unslaved podcast, exploring the self in the work of Ayn Rand and others.

As the world reboots, this is where the rubber will meet the road.

https://youtu.be/vgL1AA-eX4I

https://unslaved.com/the-path-to-selfhood-ayn-rand/

 

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After I got over the shock of hearing the squeals of a drift of wild hogs crashing through the forest, and the fear that I’d lost our dearest Tori, I was amazed to see her come through the trees clearly proud of herself.
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Still a fav, La Duchesse de Brabant, unfortunately with a bad case of ‘black spot’ but which I’ve been treating with whey, banana peels and chicken poop.
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Tori’s ‘Illuminati’ pose, hehehehehe!

Part 13

I binge-watched a new Netflix series, something I haven’t done for ages. I passed it by on the new releases list at least a dozen times and only chose to watch it based on the recommendation of a dear friend. “You will love it!” she assured me. I read the details and was skeptical–more dystopian sci-fi-fantasy–aren’t folks getting tired of it yet?

The OA—torture, death, mad science, and . . . dance?  Since watching it I’ve turned it over and over in my head trying to understand what sucked me into the drama so quickly and completely and why I found it so fascinating. The plot was certainly intriguing, the acting excellent, and for once in a sci-fi-fantasy, the character development was integral and intricate. I found the characters quite believable, and complex, based on archetypes I see in the real world.

I watched it at just the right time, I suppose, that could be part of it. It was a gloomy, rainy Valentine’s day; I was alone and a little lonely. I find more often than not, timing is everything.

For a dozen posts now I’ve been trying to wrap my head around science fraud and fantasy, and its perpetrators, and there we have a scientist who manifests many of the very issues I’m grappling with in these realms—he is brilliant, passionate, dedicated, and believes wholeheartedly in his work. That his lab rats are enslaved, imprisoned human beings is entirely secondary to him.

He’s not insane. He’s not driven by greed or notoriety, as a ‘lesser’ man might be, but rather by authentic curiosity, truth, purpose and an obsessive mission to understand death. A man so consumed with his own goal that he gambles almost mercilessly with other people’s lives. His discoveries will change the world, he claims, in order to justify his psychotic actions.

The ends justify the means. A delusional reality I see manifesting all around me. According to the research of Dane Wigington, in a decade’s time the ecosystem will be so destroyed that humans will not be able to survive. I realize many folks call this ‘fear porn’ and claim someone is always predicting the end of the human race. But,

I also see the morbid truth in the power structure we’ve been handed. Power over others is an aphrodisiac and we have drunken pirates at the helm. Without spoiling the plot of The OA, I will recall a pivotal point that I found very compelling:  The only way out of this rat’s maze is to stop behaving like rats and take the experiment into our own hands.

In the words of a current favorite Youtuber, “Justice is Just us.” Crrow777

This week’s breadcrumbs:

I did not want to go there, but when that’s what’s showing up everywhere, that would be a coward’s move. Human trafficking, sex slavery, pedophile rings, organ harvesting condoned and practiced from the very top and due to come toppling down.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qLgI1jjq7U&t=4830s whistleblower Kathryn Bolkovac

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uV50XDflfso exposing Dyncorp – oh, what’s in a name

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IClVKyb63m4 Sibel Edmunds, whistleblower

https://www.corbettreport.com/epstein-update-court-cases-in-motion-against-billionaire-pedophile/

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Part 12: Upside Down World

I’ve asked a number of folks what they think of my ‘gravity-free icicles’ photos from November, when the temperature dropped by 50 degrees in a few hours.

I’ve sent it to strangers with Youtube channels who I thought might be interested in this sort of phenomenon. I’ve had no replies from them. I did hear back from one friend whose simple comment has made the most sense so far. “It’s like the world turned upside-down,” he said.

It certainly is. It’s 85 degrees right now here on the wee homestead, yesterday I got stung by a wasp on the knee in the house. Ouch! Not only are wasps circling in this unseasonable warmth, we’ve been vacuuming up lady bugs by the thousands. I once thought lady bugs were kinda cute, now they are on par in my view with ticks and fleas.

“It’s great! I’m in my summer clothes,” chirps the choir, parroted across social media. Strawberry fields forever! Nothing to get hung about!

Adapt2030 says there’s a Grand Solar Minimum reeking havoc in the world, and it’s going to get much worse over the next years.  A new Ice Age, it seems.  Then there’s the Pole shift to consider. And Planet X, or is it Nibiru? Lots of speculation on all the weather craziness, obviously. And folks love to talk the weather, and I love to talk the weather with folks, until I say, “What are all those lines in the sky?”

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What about the weather modification? What about the chemtrails?

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When I look up this is what I see.  I don’t like it!

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What the hell is going on up there? This is considered “sunny” by the local weather man.  All is normal, just a bit unseasonable.  Why can’t we get any straight answers?

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Oh, but the weather, look, it’s beautiful! 85 degrees in February! The pear trees are blooming so the bees are happy! Just get happy too!

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Daffodils in January, stop complaining, what could be wrong with that?!

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The pigs don’t seem to mind, look how they’ve grown!

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What if life was just a game?  Nothing is real . . .

Tori races piglets, cute vid, bad game. 🙂

https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B1Qf-Qcg0t83MWF2Z0REY3pkb28

This week’s bread crumbs:

Best channel I’ve found to better understand how the weather is being manipulated with visual aids, for fun and profit, at a location near you– 1PacificRedwood https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXcnHuosOLaKOGU0qQoYzfA

How it’s going down . . .

http://www.startribune.com/what-tocqueville-foretold-a-despotic-democracy/260480181/

In upside down world . . .

https://www.cdc.gov/vaccines/schedules/downloads/child/0-18yrs-child-combined-schedule.pdf

 

 

 

Science Fraud and Fantasy (part 10)

I said with this series I would reach to the origins of science–that is alchemy–and I have been trying, but it requires a way of thinking quite out of the ordinary for most of us, myself included.

I’ve had to go back to dreams and very early memories and listen to ordinarily-ignored impulses coming from within and without. I have slowed way down, day dream often, meditate, stare into space a lot.  I have not only had to open my mind, but allow it stay open for far longer periods than I have before–continually circling back to wherever a gap first appears, focusing there, and not clinging to ‘logic’ the first time I can find it, or at all, as the case may require.

I’m in an ideal situation to make such a mind-shift; I have positioned myself deliberately thus. No one, save Handy Hubby and our critters, relies on me. I’m unemployed, with no children, very few friends, surrounded by hundreds of acres of forest. I love it here. I feel more often than not I’ve hit the jackpot, yet I know in other ways it was not just fortune that made it happen, it was co-created oftentimes by multiple and conflicting sources.

I have been highly critical of science and technology these last posts, but for the moment I’m letting up a bit, because I see now the uproar and outrage all around me. Even the controversial President Trump has his eyes on vaccine fraud. Now that’s a pebble resonating in a mighty big pond!

I’ve seen others too, not just wishful thinkers, but folks getting their hands dirty, learning the tricks of the trade and playing a mean round of Aikido with the powers-that-shouldn’t-be. I will leave these reigns temporarily in their clearly capable hands as I wind down more esoteric avenues.

Could it be I’m obsessed with our current weather craziness because I’ve had a past-life as a Wolkenschieberinnen? A ‘cloud-pusher’—weather shamans and various monstrous storm raisers.  (We were after all in two 100-year hurricanes in just three years living on the Gulf of Mexico–first in New Orleans, then in Galveston.) Or maybe I was a Schauerbruterinnen (shower-breeders), Wetterkatzen (weather cats), Nebelhexen (fog-witches) or even a Wolkentruden (cloud spinners)?!

The fact that these witch/shaman have names demonstrates the control of the weather has been a major alchemical past-time. I appreciate the factual approach of Jim Lee’s History of Weather Modification, but I suppose he could’ve gone back another few hundred years, at least!

“Naturally the Celts and Germanic peoples also had weather-making shaman women who performed their rituals in an ecstatic state and ritualistic nakedness.” (I have been known to such habits and whether the weather notices at all, Handy Hubby does appreciate me in those moments, I’m sure!)

“Because those who control the weather also control the harvest, and thus also control the heart and spirit of the people, the weather-disir were considered particularly dangerous. The Indiculus sperstitionum et paganiarum, the previously-mentioned handbook for religioius informants, has heavy penalties for such tempestari. The synod of Paris (892) judged: ‘When men and women who have committed such crimes (causing storms and hail) are discovered, they must be punished with unusual harshness, because they are not afraid to serve the devil completely openly” (Habinger-Tuczay, 1992: 2780.) Witchcraft Medicine Healing Arts, Shamanic Practices, and Forbidden Plants by Claudia Muller-Eberling, Christian Ratsch, and Wolf-Dieter Storl

Returning to this space-time we have some magic of our own happening here on the wee homestead. A herd of wandering cows appear, and then disappear again. And just this morning a white duck joined our little Muscove flock from somewhere out of the ether.

This week’s breadcrumbs, full of oddities and magic.

River of ice in Saudi Arabia?!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNwpxqDnJqg

The Sun hasn’t risen over its horizon for more than two months yet at a balmy -6C +21F the North Pole was yesterday warmer than parts of the South of France, Italy, Greece Turkey and Syria.The North Pole was actually yesterday 34C or 93F warmer than the average temperature for the time of the year and it’s been like that for most of the winter which is incredible when you realize parts of Greenland and Russia have had regular temperatures as low as -57C or -71F. Today most of Europe is witnessing sub-zero temperatures as the big freeze continues.”

http://www.thebigwobble.org/2017/01/the-sun-hasnt-risen-over-its-horizon.html?spref=fb

It’s not science that’s the problem, they say, it’s science suppression.

Rudolf Steiner : An Outline of Esoteric Science https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ieG2DyDdsww

Wilhelm Reich https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fh7wDN_6Fac&t=2485s

With a good dose of the mainstream spin magic.

‘Owning the Weather’ documentary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZDcEbTP5G4s

I still listen religiously every week.

Dane Wigington Geoengineering Watch: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6B0W6Iaz8-c

Skywatch Weather Annamolies: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YegbYvbVLuo

Wow, magic indeed, ‘Spider’ group of scientists speak out on CDC ethics!

https://theinternationalreporter.org/2017/01/22/the-spider-organization-is-speaking-out-about-the-illuminati-controlled-centre-for-disease-conrol-and-what-they-have-to-say-is-shocking/

And then, back to . . . reality?

https://www.thesun.co.uk/news/2626083/bae-systems-turns-earths-atmosphere-into-massive-surveillance-system-using-lasers/

http://www.alternativenewsnetwork.net/chemtrails-ocean-government-launches-new-toxic-aquatrails/

 

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Science Fraud & Fantasy (part 9)

Bingo!  I knew it was just a matter of time and determination before I’d find someone who could explain what the hell is going on with the manipulated weather in layman’s terms.  Scalar technology, ELF Waves, creating vortices with lasers, creating updrafts, manipulating storms with microwaves, directing and intensifying hurricanes, yup, it’s all there and it’s all happening and has been for years now.

In this must-see video Dutchsinse explains not only how the technologies work, but also why as well as debunking a few of the skeptics and disinfo agents.

Weather modification 101
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ogpNcknyGjg&list=PL55hQ9ietGo2ZlNLT2nyB-zWEwx6l-XLT&index=8

I am one giant leap closer to understanding the photos I’ve been taking from recent weather fronts.  I knew it had to do with something other than cloud-seeding for the simple reason that after heavy spray periods we are still not getting rain.  We have however been overcast, hot and nearly rainless for months, except for the periodic and engineered severe and sudden temperature drops.

On social media a woman expressed her enthusiasm for the great scientists who are creating perfect weather for us all.  Wow!  The ignorance and naiveté apparently knows no bounds.

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This week’s breadcrumbs.  The list is long I know, but finally we’re hitting it with full steam!

Encapsulation of bacteria and viruses in electrospun nanofibres
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/21727596

http://www.geoengineeringwatch.org/chemtrails-nanoaluminum-neurodegenerative-neurodevelopmental-effects-by-russell-blaylock-md-2/

http://www.aircrap.org/2015/03/13/chemtrails-exposed-a-history-of-the-new-manhattan-project/

http://stopsprayingus.com/directed-energy/

https://archive.org/details/DontTalkAboutTheWeather_451

http://www.businessinsider.com/cia-weather-control-with-geoengineering-2013-7

Controlling storms with lasers
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AbNWPoMsWIk&index=4&list=PL55hQ9ietGo2ZlNLT2nyB-zWEwx6l-XLT

http://dutchsinse.com/3232015-boeing-patents-microwave-forcefield-scalar-101-21st-century-technology-rollout/

Air War on Earth’s Climate
http://www.nationmultimedia.com/news/opinion/aec/30276627

 

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“Your weather experiments suck for us, assholes!”

 

 

 

Science Fraud & Fantasy (part 7)

“Don’t throw the baby out with the bathwater!”  If only I had a dollar for every time I’ve heard this adage.  Certainly that is not my intention and I don’t mean to dismiss all of science or mistrust all the experts.

The challenge I’m having is finding the baby in all that filthy bathwater.  I’m tired of being lied to and preached at by experts.  I realize many of them are well-meaning and some must surely be trustworthy.  But then, if that’s truly the case, why are they not more critical of their professions and those in their professions who are spreading so much arrogance and disinformation?  I left my teaching career because I could no longer tolerate my colleagues who were blindly following any orders from an administration who cared nothing at all about education.  This is what happens when business and politics trump all other endeavors, no matter what the profession or institution.

I made a mistake in my last post, grouping the work of Michael Tsarion with the shell gamers.  Perhaps I was wrong, again.  In fact, my instinct is telling me he might very well be one of the decent ones navigating filthy waters.  I’ll continue to support his work until I’m certain it’s no longer of value to me.

I am beginning to perceive the roots of the issue.  It’s greater than greed in business; it’s deeper than the drug of power; it’s more complicated than the relationship between authority and submission.  I’m not quite ready to formulate it in words yet, but it’s based in illusion and denial, our willingness to accept it and our propensity to create it.  Maybe that’s already obvious to many, but still I need to reason it out for myself.

How could we expect it to be any different?  We raise our children to believe in Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny and the tooth fairy.  We remove them from the natural world to sit in a room all day and learn about the unnatural world, the socially-constructed world–to memorize what men were their presidents and who won which wars on which days and various sciences full of lies.  What a waste of precious time it is!  Is it any wonder why so few seem to have any respect for nature and reality?!

What irritates me beyond measure is to read and hear lies and half-truths sold by the media to an uninformed and unobservant public about crucial issues that affect us all, like geo-engineering.  To all those who are complicit in this shell game, may the shame of your actions haunt you for your lifetime.  I don’t care what your good intentions are or aren’t, this is psychic torture y’all are perpetrating, along with the rape and pillage of our beautiful lands, seas and airs.

I blame the media, I blame the scientists and technocrats and politicians who are complicit or turning a blind eye, I blame those still not paying attention in the still-complacent public.  And the next time some guru tries to tell me (again) to look in the mirror, meditate, or focus inward– I’m going to respond with a litany of expletives that would make a sailor blush.

Shame on you LIARS at Bloomberg–to pretend geoengineering isn’t already happening on a mass scale!  I see through your reverse-engineering and social conditioning and demonic double-speak.

https://www.technocracy.news/index.php/2016/11/20/bloomberg-un-give-approval-man-alter-climate-via-geoengineering/

https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2016-02-10/brightest-ideas-to-absorb-climate-pollution-seen-as-too-risky

Guess what their “solution” is?  Of course, global monitoring of the hazardous life-threatening experiments.  Brilliant.

This week’s bread crumbs.

https://jonrappoport.wordpress.com/2016/12/30/if-you-were-chief-of-cia-consciousness-ops-2/

This is quite a good three-part series that just scratches the surface of the problem.  Their “solution”–bet you can guess–more mass global monitoring of the problems.  In other words, big data.

http://freakonomics.com/podcast/bad-medicine-part-1-story-98-6/

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These are not natural clouds, stop lying and stop these experiments. We do not give our permission to be your lab rats.

http://www.geoengineeringwatch.org/geoengineering-winter-weather-whiplash-with-patented-climate-engineering-processes/

 

 

Science Fraud & Fantasy (part 6)

Here’s the good news, though I don’t know who in the universe to give credit where such credit is due:  I retrieved our precious pooch from the wild side.

Was there some Law of Attraction happening there, as I challenged in my last post? I can’t really say, but it makes for a great story. I found him with a pack of dogs, half of them feral. He was injured, limping and highly disoriented. I am still bringing him back to health, slowly. I am bursting with joy he is home, in any case.

Here’s the bad news. Geoengineering is the greatest shell game on earth. It’s a Psy-Op Supreme with all the fixings, being carried out from the very top of the pyramid with far more angles and rabbit holes, trolls and shills than anyone I’ve heard speaking about it cares to admit.  It’s a cesspool of cons, collaborators and deniers, just like vaccines.

I am loathe to admit I have also been a loser in this shell game, but I’m starting to get better at it. For starters, I trust NO ONE now. I’ve been a fool, as I started out saying with this series of posts, on a fool’s journey. I’ve supported, in word and even with our hard-earned dollars, some of the very people I now find highly suspect. I will refrain from naming names at the moment, since I have no proof and no desire to slander, but do know I’m watching them all now with far more critical eyes.

I will retract one thing directly I said in just the last post, I will not be studying the work of Michael Tsarion with any more depth, it’s a dead end. I can add him to the growing list along with Stefan Molyneux, Alan Watt, Alex Jones, and several other shell gamers on whom I once wasted time. I now recognize ‘the scent’ of these players; I can hear their NLP tricks (neuro-linguistic programming); I can see their ‘cult of personality’ following and I am out of their loops.

Still, I’m not saying they don’t have some good tidbits to consume, they certainly do, otherwise they would not be where they are. For example, I think Michael Tsarion has some crucial advice about self-empowerment and his work about ‘psychic vampirism’ has helped me understand some of the nature of evil, how to recognize it and to root it out of my own life. His work in mythology and ancient history is also compelling, but lots of folks are doing compelling work in these fields and arriving at far different conclusions. The conclusions these folks are making is where the issue lies.

For example this fascinating researcher who looks like she’s doing some fabulous work debunking the sciences of anthropology and archeology. She’s turned me on to my new favorite word: Quackademics! Now that’s funny! And it’s so true, I can say that after spending over twenty years in the system—the number of blind order-followers there must surely rival the best armies. I listen for her data, her conclusions ring false to me, like all the others. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bk-o42NNQm4&t=63s

More breadcrumbs for this week:

Fraud in medicine, rampant!

http://www.runningthecountry.com/incurable-me-by-k-p-stoller-md-read-it-be-free/#.WF_p-MLmpy2

Chemtrail psy-op on mainstream news, feeding the insanity.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wynpGOWb80

The most important thing I’ve read all year. Oh the peace of mind I could’ve saved myself had I read this years ago!

The gentleperson’s guide to forum spies:

http://cluesforum.info/viewtopic.php?f=20&t=1388

More blatant science fraud.

https://malagabay.wordpress.com/2013/02/20/newtonian-reality-check/

http://therealskeptic.blogspot.ca/2007/04/admittedly-unproven-why-does-science.html

https://speculativeheresy.wordpress.com/2008/12/27/the-copernican-imperative/

The truth is precious. It is sad that there are so many in our society who have lost respect for it; people who have traded in their conscience and their soul for temporary financial comfort while sacrificing the stability and balance of the rest of the country in the process. The human psyche breathes on the air of truth. Without it, humanity cannot survive. Without it, the species will collapse, starving from lack of intellectual and emotional sustenance.” Tyler Durden http://www.zerohedge.com/news/disinformation-how-it-works

It’s not just sad, it’s devastating and disgusting.  These aren’t just little white lies to keep from hurting someone’s feelings; these are blatant and brutal attacks on sanity and consciousness and nature.

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From 80 degrees when I went to bed, to icicles when I woke up in the morning.  The mainstream weathermen give this incredible shift some ridiculous new name so we think it’s ‘normal’ or at least ‘normalish’.  What I do know, without any doubt is, our ancestors could never have survived with such rapid and regular temperature extremes. If the plants don’t like it, it’s not normal.